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[17 Feb 2009|12:27pm] |
the ball is in my court now.
she left kristen for meg. meg cheated on her and now shes realized that what we had was real & she wants it back.
i cant get hurt again. im taking as much time as i need to in order to make this decision. im not listening to what anyone has to say about it either. noone can relate to everything ive been through.
oh & im going to prom with eric. sweetest little thing ever. it'll be alot of fun & im looking forward to it. (maybe this is why my decision is gonna be so hard to make)
basically i just need a sign that whatever i do is for the best.
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[14 Dec 2008|04:41pm] |
everything i write on here is a jinx so im done with it.
peace.
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[19 Nov 2008|02:27pm] |
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to add to the last blog...
i bought into the lies at least twice more after that was written. except this time it was over kristen & not meg. now i feel like those 7 months meant less than nothing because at least meg was her first true love, kristen was just a girl. i guess i was just nothing. but yanno what? thats okay because now i know what i deserve.
theres a new boy in my life now & i know that he wont hurt me. i know he'll treat me right and he'll appreciate me the way i appreciate him. i feel like the past 9 months were just preparing me to have him in my life. because think about it. if i didnt go through all that heartbreak i wouldnt be able to treat him as well as i can treat him right now. i know what he deserves and im more than willing to give him that. he can make me laugh without saying a word, he smells like heaven, and hes got this way of saying my name that makes me want to hear him call me forever. i just hope everything works out this time. and if it doesnt... well i know that im capable of mending a broken heart. ive done it before and quite frankly i can do it again. all i need are my friends and family & some hope and music to get me through and i have everything i need.
so maybe it was a waste of 7 months but then again maybe it was my stepping stone to something even better.
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[02 Nov 2008|02:59pm] |
basically i was played for 7 months into thinking that it would last when in all reality i was a placeholder until meg came back.
im tired of stupid mind games that i buy into. im done with them and im done with you.
karma is going to bite you right in the ass & personally i cannot wait.
<3
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[27 Feb 2008|02:05pm] |
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02.26.08<3
no, i dont care what you have to say about it.
im the happiest ive ever been<3
i love you baby<3
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[24 Feb 2008|08:37am] |
youre turning into everything i hate.
i never thought id see the day where you would like a typical guy. youve always had a genuine quality to you and now youre throwing that all away and being someone i dont wanna be around. its killing me. wheres the guy i met 2 years ago? i dont understand how you dont see what youre doing to yourself. please dont change into someone you just arent.
youre killing me. you really are.
i want my best friend back.
p.s.- you can say im overreacting all youd like. but deep down you know something isnt right. if this is the person you'd like to be, then fine. but this will be the last time i cry myself to sleep over it.
"be careful who you pretend to be.
id hate it if you forgot who you are."
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[22 Feb 2008|01:04pm] |
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im falling way to fast
and i know you wont be there to catch me.. even if you say you will.
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[20 Jan 2008|05:47pm] |
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i love the person ive become.
and i love the people who love the person ive become.
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[10 Jan 2008|08:40pm] |
life is wonderful.
ive weeded out all the people that are just bad energy in my life and it left about 4 people; two of which i can trust with my life. and yanno what? that is completely fine with me.
i have the two best friends anyone can ask for. i know for a fact theyd do anything for me and they know that they mean the world to me.
Alissa Kelman & Brian Lesser- Thank You for being everything to me.
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[28 Dec 2007|09:06pm] |
So the holidays are over with.. now all i need to do is party my little toosh off on new years eve :D
so christmas was wonderful this year.
Christmas eve i went to my grandmas with my family like usual. im really grateful for all of them. they never miss a chance to make me smile and i love them all to death; even if i rarely show it. I got to see my cousin Kate who i havent seen since last year so it was really nice to catch up with her and its great thats shes still the insane cousin she always has been. i missed her alot. We opened presents at around 11 pm which is pretty early for my family (but i guess since my grandpa passed away family gatherings run short). My aunt bought me the most amazing pearl set with earrings, a bracelet, and a gorgeous necklace that i havent taken off. Overall it was a great night.
Christmas day i was up by 730 and opening presents. Mostly clothes, gift cards, and such were found. At around 730 Brian came over. I cannot stress enough how great it is that we're still friends. We watched Harry Potter and talked most of the time, which was nice because we had so much to catch up on. He's still the amazing person i met 2 years ago and i thank god that i can still be myself around him even after all this time. he's truely one of my best friends and i couldnt ask for anything more. He's a really amazing person.
so that was my holiday. I hope everyone had a good one and ill see you all again on the 2nd :]
Love Always,
Bri Habe
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[20 Dec 2007|04:39pm] |
it seems like last year all i wanted was to make everyone happy.
i guess its time to start thinking about myself.
because in the end, all youre going to have is yourself.
Merry Almost Christmas<3 :]
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[15 Dec 2007|02:49pm] |
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Carry on home,
I'll be waiting miles and miles away,
leaving you to be forever seventeen,
cleaning up the messes that you've made.
<3
"ill be forever grateful to this and you"
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[09 Dec 2007|01:05pm] |
christmas is right around the corner.
and i cant seem to get excited about it. its just not the same as it used to be.
i wish i could go back in time about 4 years ago.
<3 Happy Holidays
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[25 Nov 2007|08:15am] |
hahhaha i have to vent about this one!
okay so my ex boyfriends (andrew) best friend (josh) is going out with andrew's other ex (tamra) hahahah. sorry.
okay so josh hates me cause i broke up with andrew and hes been saying a bunch of shit to him about me thats not true.
& i hate his girlfriend with a passion.. i worked with her over the summer and shes pretty much a cunt and a half. so anyway.. i was on josh's myspace today and i found this and ive been laughing HYSTERICALLY for about 10 minutes now... all the fucked up parts i will bold and then explain at the bottom...
Hey ya'll, it's tamra today November 20th at 12:05 am i am in deep true love with joshua steven galick. he means the most to me. he is my life, my world, my everything. I love him and i always will. no other girl will get in the way of us. yes we may fight and have rough times but still our feelings just get stronger. since september 12th when he asked me out i was extremly happy and three days later when i heard "i love you" come out of his mouth i just froze. because if you relize you love someone within three days then it must be special. I LOVE JOSH
hahahahahaahh! are you kidding me?! heres what irked me.
1. ya'll? okay you live in new jersey! you dont say ya'll!
2. deep true love? can we say a load of bullshit? cause i sure can.
3. this ones good... THREE DAYS LATER WHEN I HEARD "I LOVE YOU"... 3 DAYS?!?!?! 3 DAYS! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!?
4.and my personal favorite.. "if you realize you love someone within three days then it must be special" OR NOT LOVE AT ALL!!! okay.. first of all.. three days? come the fuck on! how do you even get to know a person in 3 days?! you dont! expecially if you MET OVER MYSPACE! and its not love within three days! these people dont know wtf love is! if you really think you can fall in love in 3 days then youre crazy.. ive been in love and you better believe it wasnt in 3 days.. come on now.. yes maybe you really like eachother a lot but love is the strongest word in the human language.. and it takes longer then 3 days to conquer it.
well thats all since im laughing so hard im crying. just needed to get that out there
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[24 Nov 2007|05:47pm] |
man i havent wrote in here in a very long time.
my life is great. i hang out with people i know i can trust and i can be myself around and thats one of the reasons i am so happy. its nice to be able to show who i really am without people judging me. im so happy about that.
i realized on thanksgiving that i really do love my family. i mean as much as we fight theyre always there.
hmm.. i dont think theres much more i can write here except life is really looking up and i hope it continues.
<3 bri
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[14 Jul 2007|08:57pm] |
apparently "im a stupid fugly whore" and someone "agreed 100%"
sounds good.
shit happens.
im perfectly content with myself
and thats all the matters.
oh & i love alissa kelman.<3
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[10 Jun 2007|08:19pm] |
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all i have to say is that it wasnt the same without Bud.
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[07 Jun 2007|08:10pm] |
Daniel Sodano<3
six five oh' seven
"i just wanna say that youre what i wish for on 11:11 twice a day, and when i wish on an eyelash. Youre what i wish for when i blow off danelions & when i sneeze i hope youre the one thats thinking about me."
I havent been this happy in a long time.
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[31 May 2007|08:32pm] |
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i need to vent.
tonight is just weird. i miss how life was. i miss my grandpa. i miss the way my family was. i miss the way i thought everything in life would work out.
i want to hear my grandpas voice again, but it isnt going to happen.
everything was different when he was here; better. my family actually got along & we all were a happy family; we didnt have to act. he brought all of us together and without him, we fell apart. its that simple.
i keep telling myself that im over the death, but truthfully i cry myself to sleep at least once a week. its pathetic and i hate it. i just wish someone would understand.
whens it my turn to be happy?
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[26 May 2007|08:47pm] |
she caught me.
yet again
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